seraphemera: diamonds to dust

shade(s)

2007-09-15T21:01:39Z

shade(s)

this is the way of the world

or so they do tell
a they not yet met
a they that would bring out a worst in me
that does not need to be brought forth

turned over and around -
(as if being spun will dizzy me!)
we stumble
(our best impression of drunk
from all that we have seen drunk
for we have never been ourselves)

yet, lean close
a secret
when you spin
when they spin you
when you are being spun...
focus on the same spot
in the distance
a wall
a door
a bird sitting as your guide
through each revolution
your head remains clear
brain fooled into believing
stillness reigns inside

they will tire
their arms, legs, weary
(for you have not fallen)
it will be for them to recover
breathing heavy
worn down to the nub
for you, nothing but long ago, in bliss

and when it ceases
when the spinning is no more
you might even raise arms
in triumph -
you have been spun
right round (baby)
like a record?
yet you walk away
without trouble
an arrow
home...

when shadow and light do fight
it is only due to the ignorance of shadow
for without light
there can be no shadow.

thus...

while i love the dark
i will never tell its story.
there are plenty who will.
we are here, to tell the story of light

good night

dust to pixel dust

2006-05-11T00:08:20Z

from the moment we're named
swaddled in parchment
spine (still) uncracked
no watermark in our veins
sheathed to the before come after
signed and wax sealed on each numbered volume
designed and concealed on each numbered page
until our last steps reveal
the texture with which the cover is bound
and its dark face, engraved

of our lifeline...but this, seems all that is destined to remain
no more than ephemeral passengers in the public domain

the faces of a family for what it is worth
when nobody remembers the joy or the shame
or rather everybody who would have...
...touched their hand
...tasted their lips
...exchanged words
...fought for dinner
...laughed with abandon...
...is dead

now but unnoticed and unpaginated history
untried and unmarked nostalgia
buried in deep from the unrecoverable days

so...when the valuables are divided
the possessions sold to
the auction house
the antique dealers
the junk peddlers
everything doled
the trail goes cold

yet, on this occasion they wind up in these hands
to be remixed and retold
without thought
(and this is where we must be bold)
of whether or not
these pages
will once more
be proffered into gold

yet, on this occasion
one glance
one unwitting pose
one gentle moment
burns into an empty frame
hung on the skeletal walls
that guard the caves of the mind
caverns of the brain
protecting all that we are
from the voice of another writer
the vision of another poet
the poison of an informational age

we begin in lust
em-dashes to pixel dust

from the moment we're given our recycled name
until passing into our paper-lined grave

thread beget fringe beget cloth

2006-04-15T19:10:51Z

the fur has been removed from the runway
and it has grown fashionable to go cold

in stories, angels do not always succeed
in tales, villains seem to win
in moments, we expect better moments to follow
without discipline, or dedication, or desire

is this the story-line that has been written
passed down from door to door
(generation to generation)
all foreshadow of hope to be false
all allusion to a better day an illusion
the predestined and preordained coming of a saviour
a delusion which precludes the fact that nothing
will dam the deluge of devils
(the anti-diluvean antichrists, eh?)

thus murder is a way of living
and theft is a way of life
and blindness is self-induced
so as to ignore the fact
all creatures rely on the same resources as you...

...and so you ask what keeps this pen flowing
the sword-sharp tongue training for battle
darkness hiding the pleading for understanding

why we, who are not religious
keep burning the flame of angels
who may or may not exist in the form my mind dreams

the answer is simple -
that there must be lineage of hope in this world
and unbroken line that may wind
to infinitely fine
but is woven from the twine
of something well beyond the convergences
of time, life, and mind
and thus is stronger
than any blade you can find

if all it took to heal the world were a touch of your hand
would you absolve your enemies and grant them peace?

we are the bearers
of the last threads of purest hope

all are welcome to entwine

utterances_escaping_lips

2005-09-13T05:56:20Z

waiting for a finishing before replying
hearing as much in collisions of silences
as utterances escaping lips
one might make a life
from bathing in these sacred moments
held together and torn asunder
by the motions of voices with nothing to say

yet there are places still further from here
down beneath the depths we reach as youth
as if tumbling out the other sigh of the sky
landing upon the untouched beaches of sand and glass
left waiting for those jaded by thoughts
of time and remarkable dreams
(from schoolroom textbook fiction fantasy - social studies)

there are few who walk these ramparts
those unwilling to swim waters
so charted and crowded and chowdered
with the upstream violence of life
prefer to me the forced motion of stoic agony
of glorious struggle toward death

that these visions that do partake the mind
as last gasp heresies
are safe behind trembling eyes
as there is not enough left breath to speak them
is a fallacy

yet this, too, will fall shallow in moments of cold
where warmth of familiar breath meets air
creating words which take form
while silences dance distant disappearing stars
halfway, already on their way, to someplace entirely new

when truth is close so close too close to feel
anywhere but inside
and the violence of alternating sound and silence
is heard in this forgotten song
our heresies meet in the shadow drawn
by sight and right and might and fight
light and causeless night
while undisturbed bright colors
cascading down a mountainside of clouds
in an early morning
remind of campground awakenings
nothing more cozy than a sweatshirt and some hot chocolate
the million miles from home illusion
with but a couple hours left to live
and then, must succumb, to the sunshine
worshiped by so many yet just a touch too late
to keep Ra alive in a state of mind
where god-like happenings are still be an option
instead of the mythology status
that has reduced him to tears

here, we serve, in small glasses with ch(i)ant(i)s
a purification ritual mixed, with the blood
of a time that stands timeless, unbound and naked
calls out to be called to by the few who understand
not to betray all it is they seek for the sake of ease
but seek to say that for all they have sought
and all things discovered
still more remains to be seen

seraphemera @ 2005-08-14T23:54:00

2005-08-15T04:54:12Z

out somewhen on a highway
in an era throughout which communication crosses were the norm
milestones were just that: of stone
graves to the places alive
only to be passed through
dying as the big cities renamed and realigned with the golden stars

in travel
time flickers past and present
linear motion ceases to run waterfall
and what is shoehorned into a year of life
breathes with release
in the scribblings of a day or two
as if even when following the serving suggestions
of seventy miles an hour
the arteries of america are launching pads to the infinity of relativity

some of what is spoke be illusion
in the debate that the day has not ended
until to bed on pillow rest head
midnight the delineation
to those spun on the hands of time -
to the wanderer even the sun
willingly holds off for momentaries
when nightfall continuation is requested
with the proper authority

this is the only magic realism conjurable
here in the western lands
when satellites transpose roads
and global positioning systems
(while poetic in name)
keep us too encased in found
and afraid of the consequence of lost

if this is true, then our collective cartography
is to draw a map to the hidden places where mystery remains
not shrouded as such
but to landmark the places where
possibility still stretches its wings
and breathes a distilling fire
even if only to remind us
that the sun sets in the west
and time need not be any more accurate
than even an untrained eye toward the sky
might portend

this too shall we do:
transpose what we see
into a key of modernity
without nostalgic grace
for the era that has long passed
but add a flourish
of fantasy
in the choired harmony
of how each of us sees
the changing of the landscape
from that which is held on to for so long
it is only at death that change may do us part
from the past

penitence for a lack of presence

2005-08-06T16:35:54Z

there isn’t all that much to learn about me -
i have not divested my portfolio of interests
so if i am to change my mind there is a goodbye which must be made
with the past and a change made for the future.

what is present is just a present from someone else,
wrapped up in the papers that will only be recycled
and have been so before -

i am dealing only in grams of presence
a substance that keeps you coming back only to yourself for more.

this high is one that keeps going up as long as you wish it to.

this high is not dealer dependant.

this high is not for profit

although it is from the land of a prophet, once tired, having rested, regains wings.

***

however this is not to say that:

present + present = presence

an_age_of_liars_chance

2005-07-23T22:45:09Z

this is the age of easily propagated lies

beamed across the planet in flick-instants
that do nothing but spawn debate
and distract those with illusory desire
into believing their belief will advance a cause

was there ever a utopia
when what was not truth
would combust the pages before they reached binding
the ink held fast
and would not print
the sheepskin
enough life remaining
to close the pores
so that no receipt of the deceit of man
could carry forth
after the liar had passed from the earth
and their students found someone new
to follow

in an age when nothing is to be believed
not even our eyes
what is it then that can determine
where to place our faith

(a momentary aside
turning forth from soliloquy
and breaking through the fourth wall -
in a rare occasion of definition
it seems necessary to make clear
that faith requires
neither
religion or divinity
for validity)

fallen icons
you who have served so well
and guided the voices of countries
through eruptions of murder
we do not hold you in disdain for your meanings
for although we do not agree
we believe that what you spoke
was only meant for quiet corners
inner sanctums
tiny populations
that would not grow
to raze the earth

thus to you
expired icons
we lift a glass
drink
and keep your lifelines burning
slowly
weakly
so that you may feel
the pain
not only of those dying by your extended hand
but that which comes from the bastardization
of your body and blood

...a fragment of a journey...

2005-07-21T07:00:51Z

...

there,
the car parked
humming to a well-deserved halt
we stepped out of the vehicle
closed the doors
removed our hats
left the shoes behind
and began to talk
in the reverenced silences
that only one temple might ever deserve

with no doubt
this was the building
that will touch neither sky nor molten core
but a point on the horizon that dissipates
into the doorway
the soft places
the borderlands
between and amongst and amidst
all spaces

these are the fields
where we
are allowed
to walk
as the angels walk
where the guardians of that which is divine
may let down their guard
and reminisce of the joy
that led them to the palace of protection
millenia ago

these are the fields
where we
are allowed
to walk as the angels walk
not as with feet just above the earth
but with toes in the grass
slivers of heaven
that bleed across the earth
with nothing but a desire
to feel

here
if one listens
the song that reverberates
in the key of an individual echo
can be gleaned
from the limestone
that catches all tunes
and holds them
storehouse
for moments such as these

had we driven
from the archipelago sunrises
of Severnaya Zemlya
to the penguin rookeries
of the Bay of Whales
we might not have reached this doorway
yet here
in our own backyard
was the gateway
to another way of thinking
all together

it is here
in this field
that if we are well-timed
destiny
(not one's own
but that of the universe)
will turn face toward us
look us in the eye
and, pausing for a moment
open up a doorway
that we have but milliseconds
to stick in a foot
and block from closing
take up the robes of retiring seraphim
and learn the recipe for turning
fire and wings
into fiery wings

these are the fields
where we
are allowed
to walk
as the angels walk
and breathe as the stone breathes
in rhythm
in conjugal lung
in the synthesis
of anti-diluvean and undisturbed
with mechanistic and unlearned

(to be continued...it is late...)

seraphemera @ 2005-07-16T14:46:00

2005-07-16T19:46:42Z

here
where the legacy of my life
is being put to the test of page
there are a string of stories
for which none have traveled the duration of tale

words that have been repeating in random orders
in circles ad infinitum dreaming of the page
are seeing the light of day
although all that was even asked
was the shine of a moon

words that have been set in stone
lifting from out the calcite trails
and asking for once last chance at rearrange
glow from the fires that held court
over the boulders holding feet
from falling toward the sea of a sky above

words that are bubbling under
all rushing toward the mouth
a few who are wise enough
to detour through fingertips
only final traces of those who do not wish
to meet the remains of the day
stay inside...

that we have made it this far
seems extraordinary
still wiling away without chance at explanation
with beginning middle end no support

thus we have, finally, passed the point of continuation
up next the battle to remain in motion
rather than gliding into momentum
(without even the slightest belief in inertia)

all that is left is yours

2005-07-10T04:56:53Z

when we leave here
pack up our new tech bag
and saunter off
into a darkening sunset
with a great big grin,
the crowning achievement
of our smoke signal escapade
will be the onslaught
of encroaching fools

all that is left
will be yours

forget all that was spoken from these lips
before time turned into clocks
sunrises turned into memories
and sunsets drove us inside for fear of the mysteries
bent to hover 'round the next corner
and have taken
all of the places that were
right down the wrought iron walkway of our alleys

all that is taken
was ours

do not tuck away crying words of masters
incessantly repeating the words of those who have come before
with the embarrassing revelation that all you have learned
is that “those who fail to learn...”
blah blah blah

do not ask where i will go
the hills or the plains
detroit or buffalo
for you already know
(although if you do not remember
look down inside
and realize
only you can draw the map
that leads to me)
and in being wrong
so many times
there is nothing but leaving
with which to make amends

so when the day arrives
and the calendar reads "realize"
this self imposed exile
(all a ploy
to escape the chains
deconstructed
all around our bodies)
will end
and it will be time
for you, too, to leave
resolving only within the walls of the theatre
which one might daringly
rhythmically
increasingly
call home

seraphemera @ 2005-07-07T22:45:00

2005-07-08T03:45:10Z

We will be
Well on in years
When what you remember
Is this little day
Some families ago
Where there was mention
Of a place to return
Someday around now

Having said this
In a slightened breath
Please carry on
As if nothing
Ever or forever
Will be

seraphemera @ 2005-07-05T21:50:00

2005-07-06T02:50:29Z

in the spiral of the coming dawn
we will not be afraid

come storm nor heaven nor pleated death
we will walk tall into the fires
that have been set as traps
and lead our foes to to the dance
that celebrates a false victory

but within the line that decides
what is the written word of the ruling class
and the forgotten realms of the murdered and mass-buried
is a borderland
along which we need not tip-toe
but sing and dance toward a grave
that is neither decay nor catastrophe
but a well-planned ending
to the theatre of the morning
that we have lassoed into our own devices

there
where we will walk through the trap door
providing an effect that seems impossible for the stage
then we will leave the audience to give a standing ovation
to an empty curtain fall

and as the roar refuses to die
and the consternation drifts into the lobby
(that the faces of the players remained in work
and refused to set free the captives
to return to their lands of play)
and the voices call
"we who were willingly locked beneath the darkness
only with the understanding that release
was a given"
(painted by the brush
of all the entertainments from nights before)
while we,
shedding costumes
to become the invisible other
who rehearsed no lines
but the lives we lead
who will not look back
nor over our shoulders
without thought
disbelief
or care

again to reach the center for a moment

2005-06-27T03:31:58Z

for shame and for shadow
where the tree topped city lies
without revelatory nature
or involuntary nurture

to you who has been asking the questions
to the answers this lone wanderer remembers

let us climb to the heights
so that we may waste away
in the presence of beauty

thus to succumb to the overwhelming -

{
disappear as the skell to the skerry
impart what remains into an object of desire
that turns in to a palace of demise
}

would be too simple

to be devoured by the course of events at our feet
relinquish the one identifiable mark that separates
us from the lineage of the tellurian
this must not be our fate

how then to daily revitalize the source of our standing?
to breathe deep yet muffled air
to sigh fully until the lungs are forlorn
to gasp without sign of discomfort or fear

and who has been asking the questions
to the answers this lone wanderer remembers

these trivialities
built upon tradition and partial surrealities
written in books so that they withstand partialities
and passed down long enough to become ceremonial formalities
are not that which clears the mind
nor sets free the self-lacerating methods
of a modern mystic's flailing life

no, we need something that will cordon us off
feed us from dusk til dawn
as we are cornered into fasting from dawn to dusk
celebrate the essence without risking the transience
that pervades from the wanderlust of us all
and has blessed us
like clockwork
as we have marched our way
through thirty years of dying

flags gather in the breeze of butterflies
wings torn off like a child's final dreams
here, at the end of art
this life of death calls

iconologist

2005-06-26T02:28:31Z

there is no need for justification within the endeavors
of these few who venture out this evening
darting through the doorways
dodging snow or crowds or armies only they may see

these hooded figures pervade in tandem with the night
as last pairs of creatures heading toward an unfurled destiny
to save a species from some tired method of self destruction

these who are willing to forego
this communal stance on all matters extroverted
wrapped in a simple coat through to jointed knees
crowned in a felt that will transform into gold
when the nights shift northerly someday
hold their camaraderie close to the vest

entwined and much maligned do the solitary vie
for some look of longing that holds the same desperation
of those who do not have the freedom to enter the foyer
for freedom is but the foyer
and liberation insists
that the door must be opened, unlatched, unscreened
and left behind

please then give us this day the moon cast her shadow full
so those of us who sit within walls shrouded
by the contrast of light and darkness
might find our way from shallow ends

thus life a glass of what-have-you
to beginnings bountiful and blessed from inception to fruition
encompassing the complexities of walks that wander with purpose
finding places of rest marked not by signs, tail-lights or parking brakes
where cessation of movement is not considered an option
and destruction and death do not sit with their fingers intertwined
in the fortress of a childhood game

for anyone
left alone long enough
will begin to believe in an icon
as transient
as ours

trains go by

2005-06-25T01:44:26Z

here one can hear the trains go by
in the middle of all hours of the night
when we have shaken off the slumbers that do not suit
for dreaming is not our key

instead these streets will be tread
down by the heels of the boots that we wear
in search of that which we tried to forget
ad infinitum although we claimed to seek memory

there is no place to avoid that which we know
the voice, that is our own, that speaks
reminds us that there is a journey set forth in our soles
and no hiding in marriages, jobs, friendships, will relieve us
of this task

somehow, though, in this stretch of time that seems
disjointed and convoluted, amiss and unresolved, barren and cold
the few remaining who hear only their own voices
chatter quietly in the winter of the soul of the world

let us come together then and find our way from here
leave a testament or three so that others may be inspired
(though hopefully not tricked into believing that by following
toe by tow in line with our faces they, too might reach liberation
before they are even free)

in this resolve, these days of petulance are numbered
and the turning of the face back toward the east is nigh
yet there is no satisfaction in watching the winds sweep through
simply the knowledge of the fact of what is to be

we live in so little experience

2005-06-20T00:59:34Z

there are those who wish to whisper
sweetly and we lend an ear
willingly tossed readily
into the tease of the lips
which brush flesh in a manner
unable to be proven as accidentally
or otherwise

although i do not hold to be caught
up in the meaning of the action
that the contact surely occurred
is pointed enough telling
to whisper back breaths
upon throats and lungs
and walls that the words provide
in the beginning

and while it is not so certain
that with resolve
a thimble of soup could not feed this army
what is really meant
is that the anxiety of the unsure nature
(whether to do or not to do)
has taken from the children
any chance to be

in an age of loneliness
someone is always willing to take you in
for all of the modern age are wanderers
and with some training of the eyes
an angel of good company

in the homes of hibernation
that are believed to be the sleep of the season
are nothing but holes
and the sleep of eternity and reason

(they asked the suicidal boy which apartment he wished to rent.
His response? "Not 2B.")

to walk on water with weighted wings

2005-06-19T06:02:26Z

what buries me is not the snow -
the window sees through and true to my safety
as a fence that holds the cold at bay

with a lantern and a blanket
and a glimpse of rest
with the painting of first snowfalls
ten years and counting gone by

tonight through clouds
the spectre of seafarers
whose feet are weighted by their won hands
sail with the spirits
whose desires to dance
did not pass
with their demise

if only we could learn to let go
release the memories clutched in both hands
this heaviness
(that it takes only moments to sink
out of reach of the sun)
would not claim us so speedily away
and allow our chance meeting
with life eternal
to flee

convergence

2005-06-15T05:02:17Z

do you find many people here
at the convergence
of sensuality, technology, spirituality
where the ladder being built takes one toward art
the space that comes with such freedom
and the possibility of liberation to follow?

there are still a few of us out here
we know this for certain
beating in that corner of heart
where that which is never understood
(no matter how close we convince ourselves we have become)
resides and waits and laughs -

this is why we continue to wander
wondering whether or not
any can walk the road for such a duration
those who have kept the flames burning
for so many years of life
who have not let the world
frighten us into silence
somewhere around the age of twenty 5

but when we have yet to meet
and in this endless travel
come across the plains of white birch
(the illusion of a zebra's world to the untrained eye)
we walk haughtily into this forest
with the expectation
there is no need to come out alive
until the snowstorms fall

they say
in the end
we are all dead men
but somehow
those such as us
refuse to believe such a story
and will die finding a way
not to give in

to catch a flight such as a cold or fire

2005-06-14T04:01:38Z

in the lands
far apart
where the living
miss the dying of the dead
we are saved from the images
of transfiguration
that grasp the face in final hours
and render ourselves absolved
from memories
that are filled with horror

for if we are so untrained
at removing the images of media
burned into our minds
toward a melting corrosive consciousness
how can the moment
once the lightening has passed
be ever dissipated
from the mantle
that sits right behind the eyes

this is not a field that is level nor balanced
and to scale the hill of bones is to set sail
through a mountainous storm of aeons ago
that speak endless endless words
against all that one might dream to possibly
become that which is true a generation or three from now
yet certainly not in time
to remit the contract for our own demise

for here, as the harbinger of death watches
sits next to us in movie theatres
sings along at our concerts
graces age after page of our novellas
we have left our fate and neck
bared to the mercy of the whim of players
who are of a game and plane
we are yet not so certain of

11

2005-06-12T03:58:40Z

on a darkened road
that leads into the backwoods of the town
the headlights shine upon the face
of the only sign that knows you have returned home

here, where the population
is measured only by numbers
you do not expect fanfare or a band
and without any to do
you are driven to the p(a)lace of showdown
long ago determined
the game of chance no longer in control

a sigh of relief
is breathed upon windshield pane
and for a moment
in the reflection
there is a memory
of that which was dared to become

yet this is not about nostalgia

the years-before metaphor
of arch-angelic promises to the gods
that they who must be defeated
brought to justice
for the subservient service toward those sub-servient
will be tried and convicted
before the laws of the land
(though the laws of the land
are not the laws of the living
or those that make promises to the gods)

this is the place where life shifted
from the service of that which was a higher power
to a seeking of one's own power
the realization that to serve
one must already know some greatness
to serve in the presence of those
who have already back-traveled
this same road
and bid adieu
to the headlight sign
for the final time

with this a second sigh of relief
washes away the fingertips
this breath
a gift from the gods once angered
allowing
the breath that should have been
to be tucked away
as a gift
for when another
requires
though all gifts from the gods
being double-edge swords
will ask something great in return

this is the bargain of forgiveness
not found in basement stores
or in the towers
of temples
where only the holiest of holy
may go

this is the deal
once made
never unbound
traveling tattooed to the back
and ears and toes
til the end of the contract made

there
where the bodhisattva
must kill to outshine
we will not be governed by color of robe
or act toward man
but within one's own design
of judgment
not judgment of design

this is the glimmer and glimpse
of all that was imaginable
when the keys were handed over for the first time
the year before metaphors
when all that mattered
was a mattress to sleep upon
and a dream upon sleep

essence and effort (begun)

2005-06-10T03:56:26Z

the consistency
of personal history
is the rewriting
of the order
in which we can claim our realizations
(as if knowing in youth
could have saved any of us
from the follies
we played forth upon
our supporting cast -
those who we so dutifully chose
with an attempt at perfection
rather than precision)

this
is where
we sit from here
unseen
the inevitable theme
of the fine line in between
knowing and feeling

out there
when chance is enough
for the road trip
and we achieve
the dissemination
of metaphor and meaning

here
at the starting punt
of the treasure hunt
with the personal
contemplation complications
who arise
long after sealed fates
revealed
turn and wheel out the doorway
through the field
only to collapse
and drown
in the hay

to all this
how is reaction formed?
with a circling of the lips
a turning of the wagons
a frown of arrogance and a place of impetus
where the woodwork
vomits out the care and sacraments and tidings
of unnamed and long forgotten foes

to tell this tale
any tail
due to some brief shimmer
(or shimmer of briefs)
that the warning
may be useful to another
is to defeat the telling of the tale

to tell the tale for purpose
will change the story for worse

thus, find no conclusions here
no completions
no complications

no tidy ending (yet)

(and maybe a cheap causation at a sequel)

sport

2005-06-10T03:20:45Z

turn this journal
into a drinking game

every time the words
turn
too serious
take a shot of something

you will not make it far
but the seriousness
will surely cease

the rotation of the ball in flight

2005-06-08T05:29:27Z

within a glimpse of the grasp of the moment
the decisions that are made on what must come next
is no more than an equation betweeen
numbers statistics and patterns
somewhere in the midst of pi
rather than skill or chance
or even the fated luck which seems to drop in
and allow itself to be beaten on the rare occasion
that the proper sacrifices are made
the proper superstitions followed
the proper maze satisfied
and free will becomes not the question but the consequence
the solution if you will
to equation of choice and chance wherein even variables
are absolutes

extinguished

2005-06-06T04:00:24Z

these fires sneak within us
only to be extinguished
(though we did remember
to leave the gates unlocked)
“to satisfy the longings of our pores”
feeding on air, not only to breathe

while climbing there are no questions
just drive, directions forgot, a lack of hero’s plan
speeding through thought unspeakable
the magic is lost
as the words are spoken

thus it is:

the bowl of pasta
turning the stomach heavy
wanting nothing but a nap
when the story of a lifetime
begs you to ink it away

the smile of another
lifting the body high
at naked
there is nothing for which to rise
not even to wake for dream

the night turned morning
when sun brings sleep
the whole day through
fearing the light turned back to darkness

as the cycles fall we will fall to you

traversal (version 2)

2005-06-05T06:41:02Z

he smiles at cobblestones talks to walls
walks slowly not quite on this side of madness
or silence never screamed so loud as when he sat
alone for twenty days with fourty others just like him
they sat together each alone by fireside forming circles
not of prayer, communion or friends singing into the emptiness
of still night air warmed by flame some turned to warmth to let her fall
upon their face while others turned their backs to feel her warmth without having to

look
[nevermind seeing]

as they had come to this place to circle in upon feeling
at least as a beginning a deeper less spoken role to be that of a place of seeing

seeing beyond
[nevermind the simple eyes]

up and over and not the in-between pushing through
two walls having collapsed on either side there is still a way out
up and over to something that had not been thought of before
and that is what these words are for those whose minds are not yet closed
sealed in stone and can think of things never thought before

so the mind may move from two dimensions passing through third dimensional thought into the place of ten forming from sound where music art
and words falling from fingers and tongues of the ancients
find life in the breath of the men who live giving life to these things
within giving them form not defining them
refining them by fire and circles and cycles
of life and death of thought as it once was
bypassing traditions as controls that we have set upon ourselves
to keep things simple unchallenging
as if what we are is all that we can be
and no more not a drop more not a moment more not a possibility in sight
and as we would wish to be remaining forever at some place in a wilderness
thinking that the places of beauty are but legends of false prophets
sent back from tribes of mirage towers of bricks that translate only as lowly heavens

there are no promises of better places if only we keep our feet and hands clean
there are no promises that can be wrought from any iron gates
there are but possibilities and insights and cities to be built of our own design
not wrought in the stones of history but given breath to be known that the breath must always change for life to traverse these sands to move in the direction of our will
in the motion of our spirit as we too must evolve or grow stale bitter and crumble
ourselves becoming ancient ruins our words becoming responses
when all that is creation falls when we falter and follow when the first word
and the last breath are the same force and our stories are left to legends
of campfires and midnight skies beauty lost in the translation
of those who failed to understand

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there is no human nature as if we were some unalterable beast sprung from seas and plains or heavens and creationist theories that has not the capability of an upgrade or evolutionary concerns or transcendant feature sets that include the ability to only love or hate, go to war or let live in peace, choose black or white for the landscaping of our planet as we choose christian or muslim for our interior designers.

truth or lies and mirror images cast from the mold of a god or his evil sidekick his brother once upon a time an angel

until the day he wanted more than that which he was. aspire to evolve only to be cast out. eternity in a lake of fire for reward or retribution. so we have been given these lines of mathematical division invisible lines in spiritual sands creating sides and original sin requiring forgiveness before even a breath [much less a thought] has been formed

so here we are standing

[much less a thought]

at a crossroads as it were and i ask you if the only image you can conjure in your mind is that of the guitarist standing by the fenceside waiting for ‘ol Lucifer to walk on by and offer fame for soul, death for life, and all other sorts of trades that have some sense of equivalency doled out over time as if the now were really the most important as if tomorrow might never come

[much more than thought]

give me blue skin and yellow eyes or a choice of paisley and plaid with a trade-in at thirty years or three hundred thousand miles on foot that allows for a paused game and a player change and a game that does not quite so resemble a race. this is where we bail out and take the plunge into the clouds for we know with a feeling and an insight (which is not so different from your faith - just that it is not a faith in anything particular) and a thought that even if what we seek does not yet exist we will wish it into creation on the way down

[not to be confused with descension from heavens]

these creations of ours are not those of your god or theirs. not given under directives of obedience adherence to our ways or commands to suffer for our glory. do not sacrifice your children on an altar bearing my name your worship means not to me what it does to your father, his son, a prophet or a spirit given the name of holy. it is the creation which gives pleasure not the control. it is the expression and formation of that which is ours that you witness

of things that are not simply
[black or white or shades of grey]

creations not classified in control groups [subsets] heroes and villains and scripted foils and all things part of the Plan in place long before we arrived on the scene

strutting in across the canvas spreading color over black and white changing the landscape in a way it was said things could not be affected. sliding down black mountains in red pants while laughter flies coloring birds in brand new shades with songs never before fallen upon your ears

[to these sounds one ought to listen]

or get caught up in the devolutionary ladder as if greased and ready to go we slide down thinking that this is some new form of playground game that we only find access to at 25 after the drinking and smoking and porn and car rental timeline-landmarks have been passed and all that is left on the path of birth school marriage kids death is the downhill slope (leave it to you to decide where the peak of the meter begins and where the ascent ends)

for these are the chain-link disguises that read no adults allowed without a legal child guardian’s accompaniment like some sort of orchestral open-mindedness that one is required to have not simply in tow but implanted fully into the system and unscrupulously a part of all intents purposes and acknowledgements of greetings which become either salutations or cacophonies of inquisition - not in the sense of the crusades that we have imploded upon but under the terms conditions and warranties herein that are not so much a caveat but a disclaimer that says you can not buy your way to wings and thus beware we promise you nothing from these books and songs and lessons without an equal part sugar butter and effort put back in

[check this then at the foot of the stairs]

and decide whether or not you believe in the stairway to heaven or the escalator to some floor higher above in a high rise with no escape route and only a few who can sift through the buzz of what might be on those other floors that one believes cannot be achieved without a key although the simple defense of having a keyhole has stopped all those from trying when a little secret to let you in on is this: the door has never been locked - all you have to do is push where it says pull and all would have been granted to you - though if you take this too seriously you won’t ever try to find your way back there to follow this detailed map that you still cannot believe was so easy to track down because it actually has walked right up to you

[where it had waited for some time]

while you continued your search through over and around for it’s appearance was not as you had anticipated. standing on the level awaiting the repairman who might come to fix this esacalator frozen in a moment of ascension never realizing that an escalator is never out of order

[it just becomes stairs]